12:59 a.m. - July 8th, 2009
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116 lbs this morning! Woot! I'm already almost at my first weight goal! But I had a big supper, sadly. I ate WAY too much, probably at around 1500 cals today... but I've been doing so great. Hopefully those extra calories won't show up on the scale tomorrow. I just took a couple of natural laxitives. It's cheating, and won't help any, I know... but it makes me feel better about eating so much.
I'll do better tomorrow. :) I am staying up late, not eating, then sleeping until 11, when I have to get up and get ready for my 1 - 9 shift where I'll drink coffee, read a book and maybe eat a few low calorie snacks that I bring along with me.
My new favorite snack: 100 calorie packs of beef jerky! The bag has a lot of jerky in it, it's so surprising!
Upbeat, upbeat, upbeat... I can't control the boy issues (I think he's still in love with his recent ex) or most of my fucked up life, but I sure can be upbeat and try and change what I can and live with the rest.
I was crazy for long enough. Time to be happy. :)
